I know someone just posted about how they were having trouble getting motivated to finish their masks. I was reading over the comments and pretty much, in order to get off your feet and something finished, you pretty much have to leave no room for your head to run your hands. Let your hands do the talking and the moving and then stuff gets done and you didn't talk yourself out of it.
Since I've started working on fursuits, it has helped me grow more, as an artist, than any other meduim I am able to use. Crafting something and seeing it brought to life is more exhilerating than drawing and I love drawing very much.
But, lately, as the other novice had explained, I've had trouble motivating myself to work on my latest head or anymore heads for that matter, but not for the same reason...
I'm SO on fire, guys. So on fire to see my work finished, done, complete, and I it's been a year of making fursuit heads...that's it. Just the heads. I'm beaming with the drive to finish them and to see them done, but, due to having no money regularly coming in to afford this hobby, I have only finished one head back in April of this year. S
Since then, I've made three more heads. I'll post all the videos of them after this big long novel. I'm losing my inspiration, I'm losing this fire I have because I just can't get them finished.
The story behind this is, I'm on SSI income. My mom is going through a divorce from my crazy former father. He's cost us so much money, causing her to lose her job, sabatoging our vehicles out of spite because we wanted to get away from him, taking my vehicle away, after he told me I could have it, and selling it, as well as taking advantage of my special needs brother and teaching him HORRIFIC things you do NOT teach someone that's only like 6 to 8 yearrs old in their head-you can probably think of things a 6-8 year old shouldn't be seeing at his age, that my SSI check goes to rent. All of it. I don't see a DIME! I am happy to give it all to rent because, well, I get to eat, sleep, and live. But that's the problem. That leaves me with no money to enjoy myself.
This has been going on since May. I've not seen a dime of the SSI money I fought so hard for. My mom and I are so deep in the whole I can't even use my own money for ME. It's taking its toll as the year draws to a close. I'm tired of spending all day at home, since I don't I have a vehicle anymore. It's going on 8 months since I've last driven a personal vehicle. I've driven maybe about 6 times since May. Maybe a little more. I don't even have money to put gas in a vehicle if I were to get it.
I'm very lonely in my life now because I stay at home all day by myself because my mother works. I get to go to a friends twice a week, if I'm lucky and I sweet talk, possibly more. I'm not lonely and in need of a boyfriend, I'm just socially lonely becuase I have so much freetime, with having no job, I can't actually afford it.
I'm burnt out anymore. I'm doing better now because I have no choice but to finish this head, but I'm wearing thin. I have no funds to see my heads finished. At least, people can complain about how their fur makes their heads look crappy and they get intimidated to finish it. At least, they have fur to be intimidated about finishing their mask. I've got a butt load of foam, but no money for freaking fur.
I have to beg, people, beg people to buy stuff from me, offer my services and hope, out of kindness, someone will feel sorry for me and pay me like 5 to 10 bucks. That's all I get at a time. Maybe 15 or 20, if I'm lucky. Such sparratic intervals. That's not enough to buy high-quality fur! It's gone, immediately. It goes into ductape, my fursuit props that i want, and glue sticks.
I'm trying to finish my tauntaun suit for next year. I wanted to have it done before the end of the year. Probably not going to happen. I'm tired of this charade. I'm so broke, I can't even set a deadline for myself to practice meeting deadlines. I'd like to take this seriously, but I'm in such a weird position, that no other fursuit maker in the making has been in! Usually, people have a job to support themselves. I don't. I can't. I'm 22 years old with no income. I'm so tired of KNOWING this in the back of my head when kids younger than me have jobs and they can actually buy themselves nice things.
So, my heads sit and collect dust. Think about it. An entire YEAR of burning delight in making fursuit heads and I can't finish any last one I've done so far. I get done working on it and then, put it up to collect dust. Or, more like chuck them in the closet and ever look at them again. I've freaking made FOUR heads in ONE year. That's how much free time I have and then they sit. I'm afraid, that, when I do get the money. I'll be too disinterested in my first few heads to finish them. I'll keep making new stuff with the new ideas that come to me when my mom and i do get this thing fixed.
I wanted to finish them four months ago, but I couldn't. I keep moving forward. I'm not in the mood to go backwards.
I'm so scared this Akita head isn't going to sell because I'm using cheap, brown plush fur that I used on my very first mask. It's all I've got to work with. Now, he was speedier than the past heads by a longshot. I'm thinking because he was a normal animal with no catch or weird origin. He was easy so he just kinda birthed the easiest out of all my babies. But what if he doesn't sell? He's my only chance to at least rake in 150 maybe 200 if he's a big hit. If he rakes in more, I can buy more fur types and finish the suit I actually want to work on so badly.
He still needs some work on his cheeks. His head exceeds the appropriate size that I usually end with with my heads so I need to modify him, somewhat.
I don't know. I'm tired of being so eager to finish my crap and I can't. Since I'm so desperate and I don't know if I can actually help myself, so far, I can't and I haven't been able to, does anyone know of any programs that sponsor people who do crafts, art, or who have special problems? I tried looking at Philanthropists, but nobody has any interest in dedicating money to such a small price range.
I'm intimidated to show people in hopes of getting sponsorship because I haven't finished anything to show them my finished product. My mom has informed me, it shouldn't matter, because I can't show something finshed in the first place. The whole point is to show them I can't finish my crap. I'm desperate, bored, and distraught enough to start looking for sponsors.
Any help on finding someone who might take an interest in my situation would be appreciated. I would like to have the funds to enjoy my talents and hobbies. Its so bad, I'm actually getting depressed about it. My room is getting messier, my craft room is getting messier, I'm taking longer to keep my kittie's litter box cleaned out, and I don't want to participate with my friends in games anymore, even though I'm lonely, because I really see no point in it anymore...
VIDEOS IN ORDER FROM NEWEST TO OLDEST
First head: Tomedoe the Kangababy(At the very bottom and going up)
Second Head: Bushbaby
Third Head: Tauntaun
Fourth head: Akita
Since I've started working on fursuits, it has helped me grow more, as an artist, than any other meduim I am able to use. Crafting something and seeing it brought to life is more exhilerating than drawing and I love drawing very much.
But, lately, as the other novice had explained, I've had trouble motivating myself to work on my latest head or anymore heads for that matter, but not for the same reason...
I'm SO on fire, guys. So on fire to see my work finished, done, complete, and I it's been a year of making fursuit heads...that's it. Just the heads. I'm beaming with the drive to finish them and to see them done, but, due to having no money regularly coming in to afford this hobby, I have only finished one head back in April of this year. S
Since then, I've made three more heads. I'll post all the videos of them after this big long novel. I'm losing my inspiration, I'm losing this fire I have because I just can't get them finished.
The story behind this is, I'm on SSI income. My mom is going through a divorce from my crazy former father. He's cost us so much money, causing her to lose her job, sabatoging our vehicles out of spite because we wanted to get away from him, taking my vehicle away, after he told me I could have it, and selling it, as well as taking advantage of my special needs brother and teaching him HORRIFIC things you do NOT teach someone that's only like 6 to 8 yearrs old in their head-you can probably think of things a 6-8 year old shouldn't be seeing at his age, that my SSI check goes to rent. All of it. I don't see a DIME! I am happy to give it all to rent because, well, I get to eat, sleep, and live. But that's the problem. That leaves me with no money to enjoy myself.
This has been going on since May. I've not seen a dime of the SSI money I fought so hard for. My mom and I are so deep in the whole I can't even use my own money for ME. It's taking its toll as the year draws to a close. I'm tired of spending all day at home, since I don't I have a vehicle anymore. It's going on 8 months since I've last driven a personal vehicle. I've driven maybe about 6 times since May. Maybe a little more. I don't even have money to put gas in a vehicle if I were to get it.
I'm very lonely in my life now because I stay at home all day by myself because my mother works. I get to go to a friends twice a week, if I'm lucky and I sweet talk, possibly more. I'm not lonely and in need of a boyfriend, I'm just socially lonely becuase I have so much freetime, with having no job, I can't actually afford it.
I'm burnt out anymore. I'm doing better now because I have no choice but to finish this head, but I'm wearing thin. I have no funds to see my heads finished. At least, people can complain about how their fur makes their heads look crappy and they get intimidated to finish it. At least, they have fur to be intimidated about finishing their mask. I've got a butt load of foam, but no money for freaking fur.
I have to beg, people, beg people to buy stuff from me, offer my services and hope, out of kindness, someone will feel sorry for me and pay me like 5 to 10 bucks. That's all I get at a time. Maybe 15 or 20, if I'm lucky. Such sparratic intervals. That's not enough to buy high-quality fur! It's gone, immediately. It goes into ductape, my fursuit props that i want, and glue sticks.
I'm trying to finish my tauntaun suit for next year. I wanted to have it done before the end of the year. Probably not going to happen. I'm tired of this charade. I'm so broke, I can't even set a deadline for myself to practice meeting deadlines. I'd like to take this seriously, but I'm in such a weird position, that no other fursuit maker in the making has been in! Usually, people have a job to support themselves. I don't. I can't. I'm 22 years old with no income. I'm so tired of KNOWING this in the back of my head when kids younger than me have jobs and they can actually buy themselves nice things.
So, my heads sit and collect dust. Think about it. An entire YEAR of burning delight in making fursuit heads and I can't finish any last one I've done so far. I get done working on it and then, put it up to collect dust. Or, more like chuck them in the closet and ever look at them again. I've freaking made FOUR heads in ONE year. That's how much free time I have and then they sit. I'm afraid, that, when I do get the money. I'll be too disinterested in my first few heads to finish them. I'll keep making new stuff with the new ideas that come to me when my mom and i do get this thing fixed.
I wanted to finish them four months ago, but I couldn't. I keep moving forward. I'm not in the mood to go backwards.
I'm so scared this Akita head isn't going to sell because I'm using cheap, brown plush fur that I used on my very first mask. It's all I've got to work with. Now, he was speedier than the past heads by a longshot. I'm thinking because he was a normal animal with no catch or weird origin. He was easy so he just kinda birthed the easiest out of all my babies. But what if he doesn't sell? He's my only chance to at least rake in 150 maybe 200 if he's a big hit. If he rakes in more, I can buy more fur types and finish the suit I actually want to work on so badly.
He still needs some work on his cheeks. His head exceeds the appropriate size that I usually end with with my heads so I need to modify him, somewhat.
I don't know. I'm tired of being so eager to finish my crap and I can't. Since I'm so desperate and I don't know if I can actually help myself, so far, I can't and I haven't been able to, does anyone know of any programs that sponsor people who do crafts, art, or who have special problems? I tried looking at Philanthropists, but nobody has any interest in dedicating money to such a small price range.
I'm intimidated to show people in hopes of getting sponsorship because I haven't finished anything to show them my finished product. My mom has informed me, it shouldn't matter, because I can't show something finshed in the first place. The whole point is to show them I can't finish my crap. I'm desperate, bored, and distraught enough to start looking for sponsors.
Any help on finding someone who might take an interest in my situation would be appreciated. I would like to have the funds to enjoy my talents and hobbies. Its so bad, I'm actually getting depressed about it. My room is getting messier, my craft room is getting messier, I'm taking longer to keep my kittie's litter box cleaned out, and I don't want to participate with my friends in games anymore, even though I'm lonely, because I really see no point in it anymore...
VIDEOS IN ORDER FROM NEWEST TO OLDEST
First head: Tomedoe the Kangababy(At the very bottom and going up)
Second Head: Bushbaby
Third Head: Tauntaun
Fourth head: Akita